my letter to the TU!-GAP team :>

Dearest all!

Finally was able to reflect on the GAP camp while bathing and getting my mind awake once again. Haa...

First of all, i want to say i really appreciate what the Thumbs-up! team had put in for the camp - joel, jia huey, dy and eric - you guys really toiled for the students and us. And just to borrow your words joel, you guys are definitely going to reap bountifully what you sow too. :> Jia Huey was always working so late into the night; i didnt dare to talk too much to her at night cos i guessed she must be quite tired. Haaa kidding. And joel, you are the energiser battery. *wink*. Dy bro, thanks for being some sort of 'advisor' to me regarding certain issues in the camp too. It was great learning and hearing from you.



Just to share some thanksgiving for the camp. All of us definitely touched and impacted lives (oh man, i was nearly touched to tears when facing this malay boy (Muhaimin) who really did change and rose up during the camp). You guys are really so so great.

I thank God for answering my question which i had been asking Him before the camp- 'God, where are you in the GAP camp?' I did feel abit worn out at the thought of the camp the days before it, feeling guilty for not being able to accompany my mum & bro at the weekend chalet and worrying unnecessarily what my parents would think of me taking leave from my uncle's office for church/volunteer stuff again. But i was assured God wanted me to be there. i even planned two weeks ago what i can do with my GAP team on good friday holiday, before i ever seen any of their faces.

Tonight i realised how much the gals so close to my hearts have grown. The very fact that my three most faithful gals in church- Amanda, Belinda and Patricia-were serving at the camp with me already delighted me tremendously. (It was definitely heartwarming to have a chance to pray together with them against the casino, at 1am on the first night). Ain and Patricia came with me to last year's GAP, and man i saw how much more steady and sensible in leading the groups they had grown. They are growing into fine young ladies of character and integrity.

The way Belinda led, encouraged or simply accompanied her team just revealed her big heart of Love. And note this, the students saw Christ in Amanda. (Definitely we took note not to attach religious notions to all activities in the camp). Amanda took the initiative to follow the team alone and help them in preparation for Creative Night without my presence, and one sentence of wisdom from her 'All it takes to volunteer is the willingness to spare time and the passion...' prompted people in the team to ask her 'Are you a christian?'. And not forgetting the dear boy Cerwin who was ever ready to give his best for the group, even when he did not understand fully. (Just really want to thank you guys for showing him so much of such healthy love during the camp. :>)

Thus guys you see, God was in everyone of us at the camp. :>


I tried very hard to brush aside the thought that i had a 'mission' in this camp, and that is to draw people nearer to Him. This desire is just so fittedly hinged on my heart (i did not know how God did it too). But i thank God for His grace that when i had the divine opportunities to bring up God to two gals, Lizann and Kai Ning, individually in my team in a personal context, He did the work so gently and naturally. Lizann just told me this online an hour ago 'i think you are an angel sent by God to bless us all', and she was also the one who said on the first night 'But i dont really believe in God..'. :>


My stories are just some of the the pieces of the amazing jigsaw we put together for GAP camp. You guys have your beautiful testimonies, and I salute you and every facilitator in the camp, for showing and even 'being' Jesus to the students. :>


Yawnzzzz,
mirabel

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(dated 14/03/2005 12.49am)


P.S.S. Dont know why felt like tearing when i remembered ayu from GAp camp just now. Just before she left, she came to me, telling me how much she would miss me. I looked at her in her eyes, and said "Ayu, remember what i said. And you are really really already the best in my eyes".
Her eyes began to water, and to avoid mine. Meekly and sniffingly she said "But i am not the best....."
"Look at me in the eyes, Ayu. Tell me you are the best." I smiled back at her.

She looked away, holding back the gush of tears that could have flooded her eyes. Even though she could not bring herself to utter that sentence to me, i knew at least a different tune was playing in her heart - one which was really encouraged to the point of tears.

Thank You my Father. :>