when will he ever understand

oh Father,when will jonathan ever understand our hearts for him.. when will he ever recognise how much we desire for him to return to You.
oh Father, tell me how i can help him again, if you will me to.

i'm scared

I will cling unto the Father's love and strength.

Sometimes i feel like i've put myself into a greater mess than before. Oh Lord. Put my life back in order oh Lord.

Sometimes i just cant help feeling so scared Father. i dunno what will happen. And Lord, i seriously worry that the worst scenerio will occur. But on the other hand, there's a certain rest of heart that Father, you're definitely in charge and You will make a way for me. Oh Father.....

I thank you Father for b.

i hugged my dad!!!

haa thinkin back bout that scene sends both warmth and a shudder of chill in my heart.

i hugged my dad!
after telling him that i actually miss him alot. Whenever i think back of the scene when he will pat me to sleep every night when i was small -plus all the finger-twirling/grabbing kiddish games- i just feel like sobbing. And i told him that right in his face.

This is a good one. A good beginning.
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[scene taken place on 30th May 2004, 10pm]