What i've been busy with

I know this blog has been obviously churning less in the recent month. Thank you all of you who still bother to visit often enough to check on me. =)

It's been an intensive and fulfiling time for me. Most people could call it simply busy. Many said i look more tired nowadays. Yes it's been rather tiring, but joy and excitement have been leaping within the peace of my heart. =)

Just last week i was hosting a few Japanese delegates who came for my church's Gateway Cities Youth Convention (Pictures above). These dear ladies, especially Eri and Nozomi, are really close to my heart. They thanked us profusely for taking care of them here, but I think we ourselves had been so blessed by their simple hearts of love and faith. God's arm is indeed never too short, to have amazingly built and preserved our bonds across time and geography.

Been at my new (not so new now) job for 1.5 months. I have been busy learning new things and managing many more things at one time. Challenging as it is, but i have not wanted to be afraid of facing my limits. Instead getting to know them better makes me conscious to surrender them to God, and rely on His power to push myself through. This, always works. =)

I think i should really honour my words and tell you all about what my new job is exactly about soon. =p Soon.

Other upcoming exciting stuff:

* My heart always knows it belongs to a traveller. I am really looking forward to my Israel trip in end November. What an encounter it will be.

* Two days after i land back in Singapore from Israel, i will be a bridesmaid for Ps Adrian and Aunna's wedding. What an honour, and privilege to serve this precious couple. =)

* I may be taking a short trip to China for my dad's company's 10th anniversary celebrations. Gosh 10 years. I want to go because i want to show my dad that i am honoured to present myself as his daughter. And it has nothing to do with the career, achievement, post he holds. =)

* My family is planning for a family vacation next Feb (gosh, don't let my boss see my travel plans, ha kidding). The places in mind sound really fabulous. I am drooling over them!

* My contemporary dance course is commencing on 17 Sept! Gosh dear God, You truly never forget my dreams.

I better stop here before you guys think that i am been busy simply daydreaming about the upcomings! =p

i want to understand your pain

I attended a 3-day course on Understanding Youth Mental Health and Wellness this week (i thank my boss for sending me!). The lecturer Dr Ko Soo Meng, a senior consultant psychiatrist, gave very insightful elaborations about the various conditions and disorders prevalent in today's people - both young and old. Did i mention that he is such a clever joker as well? Ha.

Course syllabus aside, my first interesting observation was that more than half of the class were Christians, including Dr Ko himself. I thought i felt God's heart of love and compassion palpitate throughout the course; the many of us in the social sector really want to be God's heart and hands to the youth.

I was saddened to hear about the many extreme cases among Dr Ko's patients. Like a teenager with my emotions fired up, i felt the urge to become a psychiatrist. But with the sound mind of an adult, i do not do things rashly based on my feelings.

I wish the youth out there will be sound enough not to do things to hurt themselves on a spur of pain and depression. Guys, that is really an unnecessary choice.

Talk about it. Write your pain out. There is always someone who cares. Really.

Meeting up with dear Ps Kelly!

No Gift is too small

This is it. I bought Corrinne May's latest album Beautiful Seed. Been anticipating it for a couple of months!

Some of you might have read the excerpt above which describes the beautiful album. Listen carefully to each piece of lyrics when you hear it.

Am not going to talk about the theme song Beautiful Seed in the album today, but this - Five Loaves and Two Fishes. (which you should be hearing now)

In the past week i had felt small.

I wondered how much i can achieve, how well i can perform.

I told myself i could never match up to this other person.

I wasn't sure how much my work could amount to.




Then like in this song, I lifted up all my fears and inhibitions, burdens and ambitions to Jesus.

And my God reminded me... No gift is too small. =)

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Five Loaves and Two Fishes

Corrinne May

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

Identity 'Crisis' | Mended Dream

I have been talking to more strangers than ever. Ha. To bless them for the 100K Blessings Campaign that my church is currently doing.

Here are some interesting comments from them about me, which I am still giggling over:

"I thought you were Malay! That's why i didn't dare to serve you cos' my English is bad"

"Hee i only dare to smile at you cos' i thought you were not Singaporean"

"You definitely don't look Singapore, somewhat Spanish.."

Well well i definitely deserve an INTERNATIONAL passport, in the literal sense. Ha.

What do you think i look like then? =p

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I finally stepped IN to dance again, yes into a dance studio.

I felt so liberated at my contemporary dance class last Friday!

Many of you would not know this deepest passion in me, cos' i had not worked on it or even talked about it for years.

I had been dancing from my primary school to JC days. Then it was inconfidence and lack of courage that stopped me from dancing again.

But I can't describe how grateful and excited i am that God remembers my dream all these while. And i almost thought i had lost my dance vibes, but i could still dance last Friday! hee. Like in the worship song we sang in church yesterday, my heart is singing 'Broken dreams are alive again...'! =)