You are my all in all.

When i fall down You pick me up
When i am dry You fill my cup

Three years back, i was trekking up this waterfalls route in Trengganu. Seriously i was still unsure about Christ then. I never remembered doing this before this, but a beautiful song just arose in my heart and i sang it all the way up to the falls. And yesh for the first time it was a worship song - You are my all in all.

Even though i was with a group of friends, i felt alone -with God. While trying to cross on the slippery rocks across a tiny stream of waters, i remembered slipping, and in the next moment my whole body was sprawled across the slippery rocks. I had to pull myself up with my brute strength; i couldnt allow anyone to help me cos they would just slip off as well. Within some seconds, my mere arms did the job. And i knew it was God.

And O now i know that little song was written by dennis jernigan, a christian songwriter whom i hold in great esteem. (he doesnt call himself a songwriter, but a 'song-receiver')

Lord to give up i'll be a fool
You are my all in all...


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a sidenote to my daddy. If you are really going to buy me a car, can i request for a cool little jeep? heh heh...

a spoilt brat?

mirabel you are such a spoilt brat.
stop acting as if you take the whole world for granted, sometimes even God.
Just because you are frustrated with yourself being helpless,
you are beginning to be rude and inconsiderate to others' feelings.

we'll just tell them we're loving our King.

Thank You Lord that i am still holding on.
Thank You Lord for sustaining my love for You,
my passion to do Your work.

But Lord i dont deny that there are moments i feel like giving up.
Especially when my gals are not with me now.
My identity in You has nothing to do with them;
it's just that i cant see what i am heading, without them.

Not by sight, but by faith You said.
Yes Father i will have that faith.
Let me see through Your eyes.
My destiny is still to be sarah
A mother of nations i shall be.
Mirabel Yours Sarah Abraham.

i thank You Lord enough for saving each of my dear gals
patricia.amanda.shawna.valen.belinda.weiling.lizann.eloisa.hwee jing....................................

Not by sight, but by faith.
Lord they will all become future sarahs, i believe.
And i surrender each of them to You again.

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Recently worship took on a different dimension for me. I smiled in worship. Such joy that dwells in thy heart!

Love ya Jesus so so much.

:>

another room.

i've decided. Other than the doodle room and dance garden i am going to have in my home next time, i will have another space with cd racks as walls, and line them all with my favourite worship albums from bebo norman, chris tomlin, andrew peterson, rich mullins, twila paris, planetshakers, hillsongs, jars of clay, corrinne may........................

Not forgetting a little corner for my guitar which i affectionately call banjo. Probably invest in a drum set too.

Ahh there will be a cushioned corner - my little retreat corner - where i conjure the most amazing lyrics and poems for my Beloved.

Hmm probably can combine my doodle room with this music box, so that i can doodle my lyrics and words on the walls.

God has realised the salvations!

Looking at my past post dated March 16, 2005 i realised 5 of the people on my 'list of people to pray for salvation' have already received Christ during starlight!

Hooray! *Kallang wave*
eloisa, kah choon, yuxiang, lizann and hwee jing!

Father may You protect the seed!

i will have victory thru Christ!

After working at my uncle's firm for five months, i finally know the real main reason why i choose to stay here - it allows me quite freely the time for fellowship, impartation and most importantly ministry!

Never will my secular work take over my priorities in these, O Lord!

Being busy in the many chances of ministry recently gave me so much joy. I do not deny there are times when i get zapped out physically, emotionally and almost even spiritually, i am fully aware of the devil scheming to steal my joy in serving the Lord. And the very fact that i can get frustrated with myself being helpless rather than helpful in ministry, may most probably be due to my using the wrong key to open the door of the heart. And come on, arent we all supposed to rely on the Lord completely, even in ministry. (knock my own head)

O Father, may You grant me the wisdom to know which keys to use in these cases:

-valen (Father grant me divine opportunities to speak to her; and she will open up to me about the past hurts she has faced at home and school. Its not entirely about encouraging her back to school; i want to hear her heart Lord. May You set her free. Thank You for bringing the mother to me.)

-bibik, eloisa and family. Father, i know money is not the right key here. Tell me what is.

-family with the rebellious sec 2 gal. Father bring her to Ps YC and me, if You will to, and teach us what to do. Yes Lord, Ps YC and i are eager to bring the parents to church soon!

-edwin's (under qingtian) family. Lord may You rise them up above their situation. May You lift her sister up in Your joy and hope. Ps YC and i have no inkling of which key to use; Father guide us. May You bless the house visit qingtian and i are going to make next week.

-lizann's mum. Lord may You grant the divine opportunity to speak to her soon too; that lizann will find Your courage to ask her mum to call me soon, so that i can clarify things with her, and draw her nearer to You again. By faith Lord, i declare this another family secured for Christ!

-Father, how come pat's, ber's and shawna's mums are all disallowing their daughters to go church altogether now? O Lord the devil will have no place here! I know You will turn our mourning into dancing!

-how do i open hweejing's heart further, Father?


Indeed, as 'warned' by Ps Caesar, forming the twelve is the hardest stage cos the devil attacks it particularly! But i will have victory thru Christ!


O Lord, guard me, sustain me and protect me.

Thank You Father for the chances to learn from Ps YC. You know what, i sense You moving me closer to my pastoral calling! *wink wink to God*

i still have the temperament of an artist.

i realise i still have the temperament of an artist- dancer, musician, painter whatsoever.

I seek perfection in all i do (now more of a commitment to what to excel in all i do, so as to glorfiy the name of Christ); and when i don't sense it, tides sweep into my soul bringing unrest.

i like people to appreciate my work. I like recognition, though my soul still gives thanks to the Lord always.

i still have my moody moments; and i still love my little solitary rendezvous-es.