The Crayon Affair

i never thought i would draw with crayons again. They used to be a weekly affair when i attended art class (outside school) during my primary school days. My ten fingers would be stained with colorful smudges that smelled like rubber by the time to go home.

i attended an Inner Healing workshop conducted by Pastor Josephine for the past two Saturdays. And as though the class was not girlish enough (it being a ladies-only event), we were then sprawled on the floor to draw using crayons and poster colors! Some of the girly chatter went like this:

"Wah you draw butterfly!"
"I want pink....where's the pink crayon?"
"hey the crayon words are coming out (beneath the poster color)!"
"i finish drawing. This enough?" (by a sister who only put a big red dot in the middle of the white paper. i wouldn't mention who. :P)

i found it hard to start. After the years of architectural and design training, i was still tuned to the conceptualisation-concept translation-development-finetuning-finalisation-actual product cycle. Ps Jo prompted us 'Don't think too much. Don't need concept. Just draw what is closest to your heart'.

i thought of a rainbow, so i began with my first splash of yellow across the paper (i really don't remember the order of the color spectrum, hee), and then an orange, vermillion, red, violet, royal blue and its blues cousins, lime green... And tadaaa... i had a rainbow on my paper!

What else? i then asked the Holy Spirit. Hmm..probably the bottom right corner fitted a pasture. And what better stuff to draw on green slopes but little lambs! And what better number of them to draw but twelve! haha... And they all had got to head in the same direction, towards the rainbow, and the heart that was spurred out of nowhere.

Holy Spirit, what do You want to tell me thru' this picture?

Just then i saw the word freedom, and i realised this drawing spoke my heart's desire so well - to love my sheep (my 12-to-come) in freedom. A love that is as free as that Jesus has given us, a love that is not easily shaken, a love that sets them free as well.

Yes, that is the way i want to love my spiritual daughters. In a freedom that allows the Holy Spirit full reign. =)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)